It really got me thinking about times we fall and hit rock bottom. My first rock bottom was junior high when I thought dying was the best answer and had no desire to live. I attempted suicide three times in one week as a ninth grader.
My other rock bottom was my sophomore year of college when my post-traumatic stress disorder took over and kept me from being able to continue in college. There was a dark four years where I had to fight to survive my past and step into a thriving life as an adult. It was not easy.
My last rock bottom was my second failed engagement. This guy was someone I thought I would truly love forever and who was as in love. In less than a month after we broke up, he started dating someone else. It was three years that I felt like were such a waste and left me so confused and hurt. It took a solid year to forgive him and let go. Now I have awakened into a reality of understanding God's love for me and the Father heart of God so much that I no longer crave a relationship with someone like I used to. Sure, I would love to be married, but I am so confident in God's love for me that it satisfies places no man ever could. I would love to be a wife and a mother, but I have a purpose as a single woman that I will never get back when those purposes do.
This Abraham Journey has also had moments of bottom-dwelling. However, there has not been a single rock bottom experience because I continue to follow the Fatjer's will. When it has been hard and I have been tempted to run away, I have let God sustain me. When it has been terrifying and I start to question why I am here, I quickly think of all the good that has come from this journey. Sometimes I see cement, but most of the time I see blessings.
